How an ending looks like

Sometime,
Im imagining how my ending looks like
Im imagining what happen after i commit suicide
Im imagining i jump off a high storey building
And someone can hear that pop sound
I popped out my gut, my brain
Shattered on the road
Then someone come to my house telling my families
Im no longer in the world
And they cried
Or it can be they are smiling

Sometime im imagining
Im commiting suicide in my own room
At night
While everybody were sleeping
I cut my skin
And the blood flowing out and the mattress wet with my own blood
I scream in silent
Holding that pain alone
Then the next morning or maybe noon or if i not lucky enough maybe evening
Dad wake me up
But he found my body
Pale and bare on my own bed
He might be scream
They cried

They cried on my ending
While im smiling because it is my happy ending isnt it?
It might be their sad beginning
But no worries you guys deserve a good ending someday
Do not end your ending like mine
Because my ending is a bad one to you guys
But im deserve it okay
Im happy 😊